I’m actually no good at writing crap like this and got fed up of writing everything about myself on my profile ‘cause people were getting bored and not reading it… so this section of my blog is for those who are actually interested in who I am - a lot of what I’ve written does come from my heart and is written from my own perspective of myself so please consider that.
For those who are want to cut to the chase… I’m 23, I don’t like the word’ loud’… I prefer the word ‘feisty’ :’), I’m from Essex and I work as a Waitress in a Noodle Bar. I use my BlackBerry way too much and I’m always out partying! That pretty much sums me up in a few sentences :D!
So I’m a goff because I listen to heavy metal and because of the clothes I wear. I love piercings (4x ear lobe, 2x nose, 1x tongue) and tattoos (3 of them!), I live band t shirts, leggings, jeans, Doc Martens, pretty black dresses, corsets and anything black… My face is also usually plastered in eyeliner along with backcombed hair - yes! I guess I am a ‘goff’ in your eyes :’D. Don’t like it? Then gtfo :)..
My name is Jade Ann Lee and I’m just a typical girl whose interested in everything what girls should be interested in. I get paranoid about my appearance and worried that my hair looks stupid or something. But I actually don’t know, I’ve been told in the past I’m the perfect best friend for a guy because I’m a girl gamer. I love playing games and everything. I was born in Princess Alexandra hospital in Harlow, Essex to my parents Elaine and Colin. I have a brother named Michael and a half-brother named James since my parents got divorced when I was around six or seven years old.
I was a film student at Southampton Solent University. Since I was younger I have always had an interest in creating films for a hobby and when I took Film Studies as part of my A levels in college, I knew I definitely wanted to specialise within the subject and learn more about it. I have already made two short 5 minute films whilst in college so I know the exact area I would like to work in: editing.
friends, family, anime, manga, shopping, fashion, hair styling, japanese culture, boys, jewellery, hello kitty, pucca, photography, nature, pocky, ink & steel, pretty boys, computer games, going out, working, cats, horror films, teddies, sleeping, knowledge, philosophy, singing, skiing, rollerblading, kissing, relationships
religion, liars, drug addicts, domestic violence, screaming children, disrespectful people, attention seekers, messy rooms, lazy people, spiders, school, bills, chavs
SRSLY. I DO APOLOGISE FOR THE UPCOMING BIG WALL OF TEXT.
I don’t know where it came from but I have a huge interest in gaming. It all started from when my dad brought my brother and I our first games console back in 1999, a PlayStation. My first PSX game was Spyro the Dragon - haha, I remember I never had a memory card for it until a year after I’d gotten it because every single day I’d play Spyro and try to get really far on it. I remember I got from the first world to the fourth world but never could make it to the final world within a day. Because of this my interests in computing and gaming motivated me. I’m a girl gamer, I love playing games and I’m very competitive. I hate loosing especially to guys :) - purely for the fact some guys really annoy me with the whole ‘men are more dominant with everything’ portrayal of things. I’ve got no problem with what guys think when they say it but it’s when they get totally cocky about it, it pisses me off. I’m silly purely for the fact that even when someone has beaten me on a game I will still call them a ‘noob’ or an ‘epic failure’ even though I’m technically the sore loser, but you’ll never hear that from my mouth! Haha :’)!
Some of my favourite games are the Final Fantasy series and the Legend of Zelda series. I LIKE THEM BOTH. Someone told me the other day that someone cannot like both games.. BUT I DO. Regardless :)! To me the best Final Fantasy’s are number 6, 7 and 9 though I also like 8 :). I can go into geek mode and type why but then that would mean an even more bigger wall of text! Haha - I love the dancing stage games. When I got my student loan through this september just gone I’d just be there in Sega park (Bargate in Southampton) spending all my money and time trying to perfect a song! I actually was well happy when I managed to complete the song I’d been trying to not fail on for weeks on end because it felt like an achievement for me :D!
I’m too easily amused which means people can make me in stitches easily. I love it when people can get me to smile especially since for years I never used to smile due to being bullied at school. I was put down and bullied by my so-called friends because I was a pushover, I never had the guts to stand up for myself. The people that I believed were my friends never treated me right, they used to use me as I was that person who they’d only ‘hang out’ with them when no-one else would. I’m too nice for my own good and I used to lend them money which they’d never pay back. I never was a confident girl, my parents couldn’t afford to get me trendy things back then because they weren’t earning a lot of money, I never had straighteners nor could I always afford to get my hair cut to the latest fashions of the time. I never had the money like everyone else to always purchase lunch from the school canteen, I never had money to always go up the town with my ‘friends’. I never wanted to take risks but was forced to try drugs because of peer pressure. They told me I’d never be ‘like them’ if I didn’t try it, back then being with the ‘popular’ group rather than being a loner was the thing and I thought if I didn’t fit in people would hate me. But looking back none of it matters now because I should have just been myself and stayed with my original friends rather than try to be something I wasn’t.
I never used to know what a real friend is until I moved down to Hampshire where I learnt what a real friend was. I don’t know how to define a real friend in words that clearly but you know that feeling you get when you know that person is going to be there for you whenever you need them, someone who you don’t need to be with 24/7 ‘cause you know everytime you’d see them you would have so much fun regardless of whatever you were doing. You know?
I met the person who changed my perspective of everything at college. She knows who she is: my best friend. She’s been there for me through thick and thin and I’ve covered her back as well. Her name is Becky and she’s fantastic. She’s been there for me all the time especially this year when I’ve needed her the most. She got my confidence up and made me realise I don’t need to be all these things I pretend to be around her. I love her so much as a friend and would be completely lost without her if she wasn’t around. So Becky thanks for being there for me. I don’t need to write about everything as she knows :’) We still get on today even after we’ve both left university and we now live our own seperate lives but I’ll always love her :)
I’m told that I should be myself but I cannot help myself and look at everyone else’s lives. People that have these types of personalities where they put people down easily and they act like royality, getting loads of friends or even little things like comments on myspace - I act like I want that but the sad thing is. It’s just a stupid website, sometimes I look at people’s profiles and actually think they dress themselves up for a stupid website because it makes them feel good.
I can understand where this comes from as I do have a heart. I hate it when people take advantage of how nice and I am because they literally throw it back in my face. I’ve been told by many people that I have an awesome personality and I shouldn’t try to be something I’m not although it is hard especially when I see all these girls who are getting all the guys. I think I need to dress or act a certain way to get a guy, but secretly deep down I know that I shouldn’t do this because being honest is the best policy.
Nobody seems to get popular for their personalities anymore; nowadays it’s about how stylish your hair is, what kind of clothes you were or if you have body modifications like piercings or tattoos.
Hence why it makes me think, does it really count if I have a personality which can be described as:
- fun loving
- laid back
All I want to do is be myself and befriend people because I just love making new friends and talking to new people everyday as I find the challenge of finding out another person’s personality fascinating. The idea of discovering the beauty of a person inside and the curosity of finding out who they really are really amazes me. Learning something new everyday whilst standing still and watching life… people living, people breathing and people doing their own thing. Learning about the whole wide world through culture, language, literature, art, music, history, photography and the creativity that defines life is interesting.
I’ve often been told that I’m the ‘life of the party’ because it seems I have this affect on people to get them out and happy. I’m usually seen with a smile on my face and have often been remembered for having a very cheeky smile - I believe smiling is the key to making friends and being happy… a smile can go a long way especially when you meet someone new which is awesome for me as I believe first impressions do count.
I’m too nice for my own good and I actually can’t be mean for too long because I regret it! Recently, people have taken advantage of this fact and have used it to their full advantage which is a shame. I don’t believe I should be treated like a mug but I have come down to the conclusion I’d rather be remembered as someone who helps out when she can rather than an ignorant/arrogant cunt like most of the people who have used me in the past.
I have a huge interest in other cultures particularly Japanese. It all started back when I started to watch dubbed animé like Sailor Moon, Escaflowne and Dragonball Z on Fox Kids. My interest continued just after I got my first computer back when I was 12 and when I started to have access to the Internet where I started to play online games like Ragnarok Online and Priston Tale where I met players from all over the world. The Internet was a gateway to another world for me as I gradually found out more about animé where I’d been speaking to friends from America about series such as BLEACH and Naruto. I managed to find sites where I continued to find out more.
Animés I can actually stand are:
Tenkuu no Escaflowne, Bleach, Loveless, Naruto, Inuyasha, Elfen Lied, Kaikan Phrase, Furuba, Pokémon
My interests from animé continued to grow where I started to download and read manga translated and scanlated by fans for fans. Because of my age, I can’t stand to read manga aimed at guys unless I grew up reading/watching them as animés, I prefer reading romantic stories or manga aimed at girls (shoujo, ecchi, smut).
Mangas which I define as my absolute favourites:
Vampire Knight, Kaikan Phrase, D.N. Angel, Death Note, Loveless, Immortal Rain, Battle Royale, .hack// SIGN, Fruits Basket, Tsubasa RERSEVoir CHRoNiCLE, Ragnarok, Love Nista, Anatolia Story, Akuma No Eros, Sex=Love2, Royal Seventeen, Sugar Addiction, Poisonous Flower, Love Strip, Bride of the Water God, Cat Street, Hana Yori Dango, Romantic Beauty, Legend of Neried, Love Celeb, Honey Honey Boy
Culture and religions really interest me though personally I do not believe in God but the fascination of finding out other people’s ideologies, values and beliefs is what keeps me going. When I’m bored and have nothing to do, I love looking on wikipedia on random subjects and finding out more information. I love the idea of knowledge between two cultures being shared - especially if I can learn from it. My father always told me when I was younger that it’s important to travel the world and learn/gain more experiences because it helps within everyday life.
I’m very lucky to be able to live in a country where I can voice my own opinions enough to debate with others on their views. I love the idea of sharing my ideologies, values and beliefs with another person but I can’t stand it when people try to change them. I accept the fact that people can share them with me but I love it if I’m given the choice to change my views on acceptance that I’ve been proved wrong.
Tbh, living in England is a pile of wank but I do like to voice my own opinions regardless of the country I live in. I love a good debate with people about their views, sharing my ideologies, values and beliefs is an important thing to me as I love learning new things but I do accept the fact no-one is going to have the exact same view as me which is epic because I love hearing other people’s opinions!
Music is another interest I have. I have a huge interest in musical bands within the genres: industrial, metal and rock. But I listen to a lot of ‘foreign music’ considering the fact I believe you don’t have to even listen to the words of a song purely for the fact if a song is composed well enough, you should be able to feel the composure and emotional messages which the instrumental players are trying to portray through a song. If a musician is dedicated enough to his instruments then you should be able to feel the dedication and time that that person has spent practising.
Music? Check my last.fm
I’m a sucker for films hence why I’m a film student. Mostly, I’m interested in world cinema particulary Asian cinema because I just love the differences between Western and Eastern cultures. I’d love to be a film producer one day but until then I can’t quite watch a film without analysing each camera angle and the decision on why the director has chosen such choices to make the film appeal to the spectator. Horror films are the genre which appeals to me the most, even though I’m such a baby and always end up hiding behind my pillow! Though put on a good old Disney film like Beauty and the Beast and I’ll be entertained on the sofa for hours - remembering the times when I used to watch it as a kid! Haha. :)
Some of my favourite films:
Death Note, 10000 BC, Gladiator, Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children, House of Flying Daggers, 30 days of night, A Clockwork Orange, Adulthood, Alice in Wonderland, Batman, Batman Begins, Battle Royale, Beauty and the Beast, Blade Runner, Bruce Almighty, Laputa: Castle in the Sky, Chungking Express, City of God, Cloverfield, Die Hard, Dirty Dancing, Dumbo, Enchanted, Evan Almighty, Forgetting Sarah Marshall, Grease, High School Musican, Journey to the centre of the Earth, Kidulthood, Kung Fu Panda, Lady and the Tramp, Lost in Translation, Max Payne, Me without You, Monsters Inc., Pan’s Labyrinth, Phone Booth, Pinocchio, Pocahontas, Pulp Fiction, Resident Evil, Silent Hill, Sixteen Candles, Sky Blue, Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs, St. Trinians, Step Up, Sweeney Todd, The Aristocats, The Breakfast Club, The Chronicles of Naria: Prince Caspian, The Da Vinci Code, The Day After Tomorrow, The Lord of the Rings, The Fox and the Hound, The Godfather, The Lion King, The Little Mermaid, The Neverending Story, The Simpsons, This is England, Toy Story, Transformers, Underworld, Underworld: Evolution, V for Vendetta, Stardust, Spirited Away, Princess Mononoke, The Ring, The Grudge, Phone, The Orphanage, Howl’s Moving Castle, Memoirs of a Geisha, Casshern
Hahaha, I’m amazed if you’ve actually managed to read this far… As I said above I’m a bit of a party animal and I’m well known for making a damn right fool of myself when drunk… so here’s some silly pictures that proves that one :D